Sleep. I hope tonight that I can sleep for the first time since Friday. It has been an emotional couple of days. I am ok, but people keep telling me how sorry they are that it didn't work out. The truth is my plan didn't work out, but God's plan is better! And my plan was pretty awesome so how can I not be ok with something that is better than that!?!?!? Sometimes you just have to take a step back and look at the big picture to regain your focus.
When we started this adventure, Matt and I strongly felt that God was telling us to stop focusing on the things we had and instead focus on the people in our lives. So we sold our house and got rid of a lot of stuff. Then we picked out a tiny house plan to build. It was a little under 700 HSF. We took it to the draftsman and once we started working on the plans the big picture got lost. Every time the house plans came back, the house was bigger. By the end, the tiny house had doubled in size to 1400 HSF!!! That is NOT tiny!
During those three months of planning, we lost our focus. The bid for the house was just God's way of saying, "Ummm... stubborn child of mine, take a step back and remember what I asked you to do."
So I have. In fact, I have been remembering until about one in the morning the last couple of nights. And I remembered some more starting at 3:30 am today. And Matt and I have both remembered as we have looked at hundreds of tiny houses online over the past three days trying to find something that will work for us.
After a lot of talking, thinking, and most importantly praying, we are actually going back to where we started- the true tiny house. We have picked a model and are working with a local salesman to order just what we want. I'm sure it will be a crazy -and sometimes frustrating- ride, but in the end I am sure there will be enough laughter, joy, and love in that little house to overshadow all of the trials. At least that is what I am hoping for!
I am Chamie, wife to Matt; mom to Callan (14), Cooper (11), and